WEIGHT; 21st 2.3lb
HEIGHT; 5ft 8.1in
BODT FAT ESTIMATION;
FAT INDEX; 48.5%
FAT MASS; 10st 12.7lb
YOUR NORMAL WEIGHT IS BETWEEN; 9st 6.olb and 11st 10lb
YOUR NORMAL BODY MASS INDEX IS; 20-25
YOUR NORMAL FAT INDEX IS; 17-23%
YOU NEED TO LOSE HALF YOUR BODY WEIGHT YOU FAT GIT!
and yes i know before you all say it. but until i went on these fancy scales i guess i was kidding myself that i wasn’t quite this bad! so thats it, i am starting to watch what i eat. salads at work every night. less shitty fast food stuff at home. and if anyone who knows me, sees me eating something shit, you have my permission to knock it forcebly from my mouth/hands!
AND THIS IS WHY;
been to see my consultant today. he says there are still tiny traces of infection, and i need to lose weight. he is also talking about me going back in for another op. and yes, that is a dressing, yes it’s still oozing! nice eh? only been four years so far!
as you may be able to see in the photo below (sorry for the dead skin on my heal!) there is a pronounced gap between the right underside of my foot and the floor. this is causing me to walk badly, which in turn is probably causing the pain in my back etc when i try to walk.
his suggestion is to go back in and chop and chisel around so he can reset it so it is flat. this is somewhat of a relief as he said three years ago that it was the last op or amputation. told him today that i had given it serious thought, and there have been times when i wished i had chosen differently!
his reply was “it is always preferable to have an infected, ugly, painful bothersome foot than a prosthesis. bit like wives!”
so there we go. back in six weeks, and take it from there.
that burger does look tasty though!
i might take a couple of days away from posting. need to get my shit together. on a bit of a downer at the moment, which is so not me! aint life sometimes an absolute kick in the balls? ya got to laff!
i will leave you with these words…
Why are you frightened – can’t you see that it’s you
That ain’t no ghost – it’s a reflection of you
Why do you turn away – an’ keep it out of sight
Oh – don’t live up to your given roles
There’s more inside you that you won’t show
But you keep it hidden just like everyone
You’re scared to show you care – it’ll make you vulnerable
So you wear that ghost around you for disguise
But there’s no need just ‘cos it’s all we’ve known
There’s more inside you that you haven’t shown
So keep on moving, moving, moving your feet
Keep on shuf-shuf-shuffling to this ghost dance beat
Just keep on walking down never ending streets
One day you’ll walk right out of this life
And then you’ll wonder why you didn’t try
To spread some loving all around
Old fashioned causes like that still stand
Gotta rid this prejudice that ties you down
How do you feel at the end of the day
Just like you’ve waked over your own grave
So why are you frightened – can’t you see that it’s you
At the moment there’s nothing – so there’s nothing to lose
Lift up your lonely heart and walk right on through.
ghosts – the jam (from the gift lp)